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Use & Throw

God created man to cherish and man created things to use. But today the generation is so damn confused and messed up in his brain that they are doing it the other way around. I know few such people, I don’t exactly know but may be I have been used as well. I only expected affection from people. All I got was sheer loner feeling. I believed one day people might just get back to me at least because I treated them good, but they never turned out to be so,when they did it was only for a motive use me get what they want kick my ass and just walk away. Am I a sheath or something you used for a course or what?? See guys I never felt bad that I got used by you, never not even once. But it hurts me more now thinking that I was there for you and you saw me only when you wanted something out of me. huh? what sort is this?? and you call me a friend really?? call me a whore rather, who gets screwed up just for your pleasure that too without any charges. Right now my life sucks and it sucks like hell. Am a big loser, not so much friendly anymore, a stone heart, hot headed, depressed, angry and all the other negatives you could associate. How fucked up I might have been to build a fort of trust on a sand basement. Shame isn’t it? I am ashamed of myself and you know the reason. I’ll never love and care for people, it only gave me wounds that hurt me more fare more than the collarbone I broke 3 days back in the bike crash. Thank you life, time and my very very special fate for f?#&ing shit out of me and making me realize.

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